i’m pretty sure i made a post about this before. it just makes life harder for so many people. and in a lot of cases, i tend not to put the fault on the person being favored if there is an instance of favoritism. i put the blame on the person who has the power and the will to bestow that privilege…
i cannot BEGIN to describe how relevant this is right now. and to think i wrote this in late september of 2010. at that point i had been feeling that way for over a year already. it’s crazy how i still feel that way now.
damn, I have been trying way too freaking hard to do something that someone has been trying to prevent me from doing. it’s not worth my time to be your fucking marionette. Its not worth my time to work so fucking hard just to end up in the same position i was in a year ago. from now on, what I do is for myself and for the good of those kids. I refuse to relinquish my position to someone who isn’t a good influence on them. I refuse to let them rot under an immature someone’s tutelage. that’s the only reason why I’m still here. So be thankful that I’m doing something that y’all don’t have the patience or the capacity to do. Be thankful that me and my partner are doing your dirty work.
P.S. I know you’re reading this. Before you go and make judgments about what I just wrote, think about what you’re doing. Do you know what I’m talking about? I don’t think so. I dont think you can sympathize, let alone empathize, with me. Bottom line, don’t say anything at all.